On being a guru

“The greatest guru is your inner self.Truly he/she is that supreme teacher.”


On discipline

“Discipline” is a difficult word for most of us. It conjures up images of somebody standing over you with a stick, telling you that you’re wrong.

But self-discipline is different. It’s the skill of seeing through the hollow shouting of your own impulses and piercing their secret.

They have no power over you. It’s all a show, a deception. Your urges scream and bluster at you; they cajole; they coax; they threaten; but they really carry no stick at all.

You give in out of habit. You give in because you never really bother to look beyond the threat. It is all empty back there.

There is only one way to learn this lesson, though. The words on this page won’t do it. But look within and watch the stuff coming up- restlessness, anxiety, impatience, pain- just watch it come up and don’t get involved.

Much to your surprise, it will simply go away. It rises, it passes away. As simple as that. There is another word for self-discipline. It is patience.”

― Bhante Henepola Gunaratana
Mindfulness in Plain English

January 2018 reality checking

The first month of the year is about to end. I am reality checking my life since day 1 and I just realize that I have been stripped off some stuff within and outside of me.  I am not sure if the stripping off is caused by me or by some other force or circumstances. Perhaps it is nature’s way of telling me something. I just don’t care much at all anymore.

Yes, I have no stable job and no fixed income. I am staying at my mom’s place and it has been a roller coaster ride. I am often monstrous towards my nephews. My PMS state has been adding fuel to the fire.

I am, thankfully, teaching yoga everyday so It has also been helping me become grounded. (at least) I am depressive at times too with matching queries  like “why this, why that.? ”

My bliss is unstable. My laughter conservative. It is a blessing that my practice on the mat is still consistent.

So, what keeps me alive and kicking until now? I don’t have any slightest idea.

I just practice and go on. Honestly, there are days that I want to quit. I want to forget that I exist and that life is but an illusion. Yet, there are days that I simply just live.

Om shanti, shanti, shantihi.